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You know there is something about a shift in awareness that obscures seeing anything else. That idiom of ignorance is bliss coupled with being unable to return to not knowing once something is known.

One of my classmates told me that when a person is reading, the reader usually blinks at a full stop (i.e. a period). Then she challenged us to not think about that when reading because she finds that once she thinks about it she blinks more frequently because she is hyper-aware of the potential for unconscious blinking.

When I was visiting Cory, he mentioned an increased usage of "ish" in conversation. And I was writing an email in which I mentioned getting home at 11-ish only to recall the look on Cory's face when I used a couple hours after he mentioned it.

And it's funny how that vagueness in language, that approximation of meaning is now linked to Cory and somehow that is really gratifying. Similarly, I think of Emer when I realize I am blinking as I read. And that is gratifying, too. I wonder how long I will remember these examples, these connections because they do somehow fit with a deeper understanding of these individuals at this moment in our lives.